“Sadness and Happiness are the same”
Wow. Time flew so fast and it’s May already. It’s another month, a new month to either begin anew or to keep on trudging through life. A new month to thank the Heavens for letting the Universe function as it is and for letting me live to type this post. Well, COVID-19 is still here to stay but at least, I and all the people I care about are still alive and physically healthy. Although I am quite affected mentally, I know that I can move past this and believe that every thing happens for the good.
So let me bring you up to speed, April has been eventful as certain wishes did and did not come true. But the wishes of getting a new job and seeing my man got fulfilled though. April has been both a fun and sad fest though. Given that I landed a new job, I had to say goodbye to my colleagues in the Depot Office who had been my family for the last two and a half years of my life.
Imagine yourself looking forward to being with them until you retire but suddenly finding yourself that your plans have been completely overturned and now you must tell these people that ‘something came up so see you again in the future.’ It’s sad, the same level of happy that I felt when I built relationships with them. But I just have to accept it and realize that what’s bound to happen will happen… and that every thing would eventually turn out for the good. Of course, you have to leave it all to the Lord for your choices to fall into their right places.
Until now, there are still moments when nostalgia and missing them would still hit me but I think that I am coping up wonderfully. I am with my family and thank the heavens, Ryan had been a big help in this department. Yes, he’s also a culprit for my sadness but the constant communication greatly helped. Thank the Heavens for the internet and cellphone and for just being so kind to me.
The Lord has allowed my man to visit us in the Depot Office and has exceeded expectations when He allowed the guy and his brothers to even accompany me all the way to General Santos City. Yeesh. That Gensan trip was completely unforgettable. It was lowkey but everything went relatively well. The accommodation was ok, the parents did not become hysterical, the skies were clear, the heat of the sun was bearable…the Universe really made pakisama and allowed the guys to go home safely with only a hangover.
April has been both sadness and happiness, a manifestation of the beginning and the end, and a reminder that life is always a cycle of change. And as humans, we need to adjust, accept, and embrace whatever life has to offer. We can complain, we can cry, we can get depressed…but ultimately, the Universe is still the victor at the end of the day.
So that’s my learning for April. Looking forward to what the month of May has to offer.